Okay okay. Sorry not sorry if that was click bait. There’s no magic secret to this. Actually I’m sure its possible; though I’m not there yet. At least not 100%. It’s not so much that you don’t give a fuck what people think, it’s more like you do what’s right for you regardless of what they think. Note: This is not to be confused with not seeing value in someone else’s opinion. I can respect that you believe in your opinion without agreeing with you. I can see your valid points, but what it comes down to is I’ve realized 9 out of 10 times,
I know what’s best for me.
And that maybe that 1/10 was just something I needed to do anyway so that I could learn from it.
I can’t tell you HOW to not give a fuck, but I can tell you WHY I don’t and how I got there. I’m blessed with having many talents. I was that straight A student. I’m great at math and science. I’m also a child of immigrant parents who with the best intentions were certain that a career in medicine or law was the singular path to financial security and happiness. I was directed down a specific path which I took through a BSc. in university. Of course many of you know now that an undergraduate degree is by no means a ticket to career success and while I realized this while studying, it’s impossible for me to half-ass anything; even more so to quit anything and I completed my degree. I even applied for my masters and accidentally-on-purpose bombed my interviews. If either of my parents end up reading this it will be a revelation; again sorry not sorry. Let it also be known that I don’t feel I wasted that or any time in my life. I regret nothing as it has all led me here.
The problem with having many talents is that sometimes you really don’t like some of the things that you’re good at, but the people around you (who may mean well) put a lot of value on those talents. All I wanted to do for the first two thirds of my life was please my parents and I guess I thought if I could succeed at that then I would please myself. But the truth is I never felt like I pleased them enough.
Lightbulb moment: Maybe I’d get a better return on my investment if I worked on making myself happy directly.
It took a while to build up the courage but after working for a year post-grad, I made a decision. I enrolled in design school.
Fuck yah I was scared. I was afraid to fail and hear ‘I told you so’. I was terrified that I wasn’t talented enough. Science and math are easy for me; I would never doubt myself in those areas. Fashion design was just something I loved and I didn’t know if I was good (enough). THAT is what not giving a fuck about what people say is;
It’s doing something even though you’re afraid and even though other people tell you not to – because it feels right to you.
Turns out I am really good at it. I did way better than I had in university. More importantly I learned way more. Not just the technical skills from the program but about myself. I learned to take more risks, to just try things and be okay with it not working out, that things don’t have to be perfect. Most important I learned to be more confident in those skills that until that point other people in my life didn’t see as valuable. To be confident in those talents that I enjoy even if others didn’t see them as profitable. It was the start of shifting my way of thinking. Widening my view of the world and myself.
And it’s only the prequel of my not giving a fuck…
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